Rain, Rain GO AWAY!!!

I never liked rainy days. They always reminded me of summer about to end, school about to start...a broken heart, and of another quarter of uncertainty. I went back to work in the academe and I started feeling that cycle. Now, I am resigned from work, I can feel the sadness manifest in different forms.

Running for example. Yup I loved running in the rain, but I now get scared. As a wife and mommy, your life is no longer your own. As much as I want me time, there are just so many factors that you lose your grip and let other things take a hold of you. I have a 10k run this Sunday, and so I am literally begging the Lord to spare me from being last again... or just to let me enjoy my Sunday run. I only did around 5 k this week, my fault of course... but still...

And our future. Our land lord has told us to move by July 30, where will we go? It is like first week of school all over again. Meeting new people, going through the motions... so physically  and emotionally draining! Argh... I hate emptying boxes only to find no space for their contents... or looking at a place you have loved due to force of habit, and letting it go... like a sad funeral.

Yes, I know... my blog says lets get positive, but there are times that I do succumb to this morose feeling... because these are also the times there is no one who can help me but God, and also I am in my most vulnerable position, and that I get to produce something good after (a blog entry or what have you...). And I guess these moments make you realize how good it is when you are up, and how hard you have worked to reach it...