Doing It Fast Vs. Doing It Right

I woke up this morning to my husband's voice, telling the helpers that I would love what he was watching. I caught the last few minutes of great run, 10k, and these runners finishing the race at 33 minutes...

I have not even reached the part in my life that I could finish a 5k in 33 minutes, what more a race that is double in distance, but all I can say is that I have been running for about 6 months now (tomorrow, officially), and I have run 4 10k's, and quite a number of 5k's. And I have hired the help of a coach who totally changed my (wrong ) form and made me go back to the demanding intensity of the 5k distance, slowly but surely.

Slowly but surely.... a very used yet taken for granted kind of line. Especially by me, an impatient, ADD-stricken, results-oriented person.

This line is extended in all aspects of my life, from my running to my career, which I have decided to "give up" for my family. This line is extended to my own finances as well. Well, there are days wherein I imagine how different my life would be if I were a corporate hot-shot, or a well-known teacher, or a pioneer in the field of reading, or a public figure in the running community. My time would probably be so busy, I'd be so in demand...I'd be ubiquitous and omni-present... And I could buy anything I wanted (sorry, I'm a sucker for purchasing power!)

But my daydreaming stops because, in spite of my restlessness, my eagerness to reach my goals, I am grateful for the slow but numerous opportunities to enjoy my family-my supportive husband and my growing 2 year old toddler, my slow but developing runs, my teaching abilities (I tutor kids now, which lessens my missing teaching). I may not be employed in a big school at the moment, but I live to hear my daughter's laughter when we play. I may not be doing my marathon very soon, but as small as my Kenyan steps, I know I will get there. I may not have everything I would wish for this very moment, but I know I have everything I need.

Nothing more, nothing less. Just right....